I just got back from an almost pointless 2 hours on-campus. I originally went to add my linguistics independent study to my schedule (it requires forms to be filled out and signatures added on those forms). That didn't happen. While I was waiting for that to (not) happen, I went to the library. I won't bore you with details, but here's a summary of where I went today. Oh, and I got 7 books.

-2nd floor of Breland: 6 times
-2nd floor of Zuhl: 3 times
-4th floor of Branson: 1 time (thank goodness)
Plus, of course, walking from the dirt lot to Corbett to Breland, and then between Breland and the two libraries. With carrying books, I might add.

On the plus side, after I checked out my 7 books and was carrying them geekily throughout the campus, I ran into a certain hypothetical bum-snowboarder (not literally--- although I'm sure I did run into a few people will my running around). We walked down the same hallway, so I asked him about the test we got back yesterday in class. It wasn't a long walk, so that was it. It'd be nice to have a "real" conversation with him tomorrow... and maybe set up something to hang out someplace... maybe at a bar tomorrow night... or something. Of course, I don't see either of those happening, but who knows? If I see him tomorrow, maybe I'll at least say hey... or tell him I've never been snowboarding, but am interested (in snowboarding, of course- what else would I be ineterested in?)

Time to get back to work. If I can. *twitch*

I'm bored and hung-over (read post below for story), and so that leaves me with almost nothing to do. [I could technically study or work on my take-home final.... but both are kind of pointless hungover].

( Survey stolen from Rose )

Wow--- he's a nice guy. This morning, he was on DA duty. I was nice and got him breakfast, but thought I'd jokingly say he owes me two shots of vodka. "I don't like vodka," he said. Continuing on, "Maybe 2 beers..." "I don't like beer." Then he muttered something about knowing how to repay me... and I walked away nervously.

Tonight, he came over to my dorm and gave me two 50ml bottles of vodka... not enough to get me drunk, really [Just a little buzzed]... but a nice gesture, anyway.

So, now I reckon I have to do something nice for me--- especially because I was only joking about the vodka. I'll probably just offer to pay him back the few dollars it cost. But there are other ways... Hmmm... I could, one day, just say he's right in a debate... or... there are lots of ways...

Sadly, those three items (guys, water, and stories) have nothing to do with each other... this is just a general update, with focus on those things.

Guys

Barton: He lives in my dorm, a very quiet person, keeps to himself. I finally talked to him last week. He was eating by himself, and on my way back from a cookie run, I spoke with him. Sadly, he mentioned a date with a girl. Bah.

Anyone else: Not really. Nothing big has happened recently. I still talk to Lance--- once in a while... Mitch, still no progress. I have come to think he's quite knowledgable [he knew the capital of Venezuela--- Caracas. *drool*] I somehow don't think I'll like his personality, though... just something... *shrug* Tim--- talked to him to get notes, but I'm sure he has a girlfriend... uhhh.. all boring usual stuff.

Water
All the snow's melting. There's water everywhere--- especially on the paths on which snow is located. Very wet. I need to wear my waterproof boots... but otherwise, it's nice outside [shorts!]

Stories
I finished two stories for creative writing, "What could go wrong?" (kind of about a gay guy [me] and one of his crushes) and "The Satanist and the Buddhist" (about religion... mostly about a Satanic high school student).

I had me a drunk guy in my room tonight. He only stayed over maybe 1.5-2 hours. We spent the entire time watching Family Guy or The Critic episodes from my DVD collection. Exciting night. And now it's only 1:30. Who knows what else the night could hold? Eh--- I'm going to bed.

Boring. St. Pat's Day = boring. I did nothing. I didn't even drink. How disappointing is that? How can I celebrate my possible Irish heritage? (I say possible because I'm not really sure what my ancestory is--- all I know is that I'm a European mutt, according to my dad).

I did start talking with a new guy, though (online, of course)... who wants to meet. He did mention the possibility of going hot tubbing. Plans didn't work out this afternoon, so we're going to try tonight, maybe.

I just got me some Sweettarts. 2 packages. One I had to fight to get from the good-looking desk attendant Brendon, who stole it from me. Or rather, he intercepted it before I could. Ah--- Candy, and fighting with a cute guy. *grin* :-P

Later on in the night, he was yelling about something... sex with a girl... bad... I dunno. I wasn't paying much attention. I was about to go and talk to him, but then I ended up going into another room to watch a movie. I guess I was kind of a jerk for not being a friend and asking what was wrong... but he was a jerk to me for absolutely forgetting about bowling. *shrug* We're even, I guess.

Tonight I was supposed to go bowling with Teddy. 19:00 rolls around. I go to his room. He's not there. I check back at 21:30... still not there. I finally realize it's probably too late for any bowling to happen. Technically, still possible--- the bowling alley's free night went until 23:00... but I figured the likelyhood that he had other stuff going on was pretty significant. I was right. We didn't go bowling.

I saw him a little while ago--- maybe 45-30 minutes ago. He didn't even mention bowling. I'm kind of mad at him for that. Eh, true--- it's only bowling. He just seemed to make a big deal out of it, though. He reminded me a few times about it during the week. I'm thinking it might have slipped his mind because of his date tonight... or maybe it did have something to do with me coming out to him a few nights ago.

He didn't seem to have any problems with it... In fact, he showed me a picture of one of his gay Canadian friends online. I'm sure that's not the reason for the lack of bowling tonight. It's probably just his date. Buuuuut, sometimes things are difficult to place any reasoning for.

So, with that said, I am kind of mad. It just seems like people forget about me a lot of times. I had plans last weekend to go bowling, but my friend never showed or called. That turned out good because I got to go bowling with Teddy. *shrug*

Time to finish watching the Lion King (Special Edition) and go to bed.

Correction:

"So I knew Teddy was straight. His metrosexuality just kept throwing off my possibly-existing gaydar... "

Wow. Below I said "gay"... so maybe I am attracted to Teddy... *cough* and subconciously want him to be gay? Bah! Curse this metrosexuality thing!

I'm a little bit down because I'm having trouble figuring out what to do about Matt. I was hoping last night to hang out with him more, but the RA sort of broke apart the little party downstairs, and I lost track of him and hung out with another group.

I'm just not sure of a lot of things. When I was talking with him today, I got a feeling of gayness from him... LoL Maybe my gaydar is actually telling me something? So I'm not sure if he is or not, but IF he is, then I'm not sure on how to progress things. I can't really ask him on a "date" because neither of us has a car. The most we could do is drink coffee {bleck} at a small cafe nearby, or in the student union... or more likely, just stay in one of our rooms. That's about it. So, it makes it very difficult. :-\

Well, that's been on my mind. It's kind of a bum to think about. Ah well.

I'm fully of shiny, happy energy right now... I got Kyle's number. That's the good news.

The bad news is that his over-friendliness might be due to the fact that he's religious. A Christian. He seems pretty devout, maybe... I'm not sure yet. For some reason, churches are a breeding ground for those oddly friendly people. *shrug*

Well, maybe a Matt to kiss around... that's my goal. :-P My new crush is Matt. And Kyle. I know I keep changing crushes here... I'm horrible about it, but these guys, along with Brendon, are the ones I *MIGHT* have a chance with, or so I'm thinking. Brendon, Matt, Kyle = good. Anyone else mentioned below = bad. There. That's out of the way.

In school... hmm... most of my classes are easy because I never have any work in them, really. My hardest class is geology because I have a lab, in which I actually have to work on a pre-lab for, plus, there's a take-home quiz every week. It keeps me opening the book. My other classes, however... there is almost no work. Inupiaq occasionally has it, but it's usually easy. I am worried, however, because most of these classes rely heavily on testing, since there's no work.

In other news... uhh... I'm playing a game of Civilization 2: Test of Time, where I'm the Chinese and I've already conquered the Germans and the French. Pathetic Europeans.

His name is Brandon, though he said it like Brendon... not sure if that was an accent or the way he said it, or if his name is Brendon. Eh, whatever. Close enough.

I talked with him last night/this morning again. {"Him" being my desk attendant}. It wasn't any major conversation... just a few minutes, but it's something, I guess. I have to get the nerve to talk to him again... like a long conversation. LoL Ah well. I hope he works tonight... and not the 12am-3am shift again. I was tired staying up till 3. I really hope he has the 7-12 shift tonight.

Last night, I'm very much set on watching Family Guy. I go down to the tv lounge at 10, to find out it's not on. At that time, I figure it must be on at 11. One hour later, I went back. No Family Guy. Something even better, though! It wasn't Futurama... but... the cute desk attendant I like! Yes! He talked to me. I feel like such a girl for typing this blog. Bah.

Anyway, he talked to me, at first about Adult Swim and some of the shows... and then just to general stuff--- my major, what I'm doing here in AK, etc. I'm just happy about that.

I'm guessing he's bi... but that's just out of hopes, most likely, and the fact that I have no gaydar to be able to read him, well, yeah. *cough* It's kind of sad and pointless to say I think he's bi when I have no gaydar and no other evidence to speak of... other than that he actually talked to me and stuff. *shrug*

Today, while in Office Max, while I was waiting in line, someone double glanced back at me. I was in line. He was on his way out. He looked back in my direction once. He walked through the first set of doors, and then he looked backed again. My direction... or my general direction. It wasn't any quick or discreet look... it was... very obvious. LoL And then he left... and I don't know what happened to him after he left the store. It's just a good feeling to know someone looked back at me (my direction) twice. Now if only I knew where he went or where I could find him now...

One of my crushes (Othaniel) is now dubbed "banana boy" because he's trying to petition for free bananas on Tuesday (i.e., free snacks in each of the residence halls so we don't have to go down to the cafeteria, or something).

My three crushes of the semester... (in no particular order)

Lance

Lance was my first crush. He's another NSE student, from Washington. I met him the first day I was here, at one of the orientation sessions. I saw him again when the Student Rec Center (SRC) was having their "open-house," and we hung out together. A few days went by... and I saw him again at the SRC (I was showing another friend--- Shawn, around that.) We ran that time... for like 30 minutes. Well, he ran. I attempted to run, but mostly walked. After that, I told him to call me if he wanted to workout/run together... he never did... but we ended up in the same geology class and lab, which I just signed up for. Tonight we were lab partners. He also had a hole in the back of his jeans. :-P

John

I saw John last night at AGLA, the gay club on campus. That's all. I haven't talked with him... but I thought he was pretty cute, and I thought I even saw him give me a glance once... but I doubt that. Today in the cafeteria, I saw him. I think he saw me, but he didn't really even try and say hi or anything--- maybe he just didn't recognize me. Anyway... so, that's all.

Nameless Othaniel

I'm not really sure of his name... I think it's Othaniel, however. I haven't talked with him, just seem him on occasion. All I know is that he's a freshman and lives in the freshman dorms.

I've gotten asked these a lot.. well, okay... kind of... bah.

1) I might tell my roommate I'm gay, but not until I'm up there and he's gotten to know me.

2) My boyfriend and I... well.. neither of us is sure, really. LoL I guess the best way to say it is that we're going to keep an open relationship.. I think.. errr.. like I said, I'm not sure, he's not sure.... we're just going to find out when it happens, I guess.

I'm starting to think maybe one of the guys I thought I scared away wasn't really scared away, he just joined the National Guard. There is a guy who I saw in the computer labs and liked. The next Friday night, I saw him online at gay.com. I thought maybe I scared him off or something... but just recently, I remember he had been in the computer labs thinking about joining the National Guard. I haven't seen him in the lab or online recently---> he must have joined the N.G.

I feel good now for not scaring him away, but bad because he's gone now. **sniffle** And he was pretty cute too. He also was looking for... uhh... "fun" the night he was online. Ah well. He's gone now... or just totally avoiding me. Either way, he's out of my life. Well, for now.